Friday, October 3, 2008

I Just May Be Doing Something Right......

It seems as if I've been questioning my parenting skills so much lately. And it's not that my kids have been acting any worse either, it's just how I react to them. I've never been a patient person, but lately it seems as if I have no patience for anything. I get mad over the littlest things, I lose my patience and snap at them for no good reason, and when they are acting up, I tend to yell a lot which I HATE to do. I don't feel like a fun mommy most days. I'm tired of being tired all the time, being grouchy, and unmotivated. It needs to change, my boys deserve better than what they are getting.

But in spite of all of that, my boys will do something to make me feel like I'm doing something right, to make me hug them and tell them how much they mean to me. (and I feel the mommy guilt because I am so very lucky to have these wonderful boys). This Saturday night, my boys and Todd were supposed to go camping with the rest of the Scouts at school. Drew always loves camping out and this was to be Noah's first big camp out since he joined Tiger Cubs. It turns out that we have family coming in town that we haven't seen in ages. Two of them happen to be cousins their ages. My aunt decided to have a get together at her house that same night. I was unsure of what to do because while I feel family comes first, they had already been looking forward to this camp out before we knew of the get together. And knowing what a busy week we had ahead, I didn't know if they'd get many other chances to see them. Todd sat down with them and explained the situation and that we were trying to decide what to do. He asked them what they thought. They both said they should be with the family. Not a complaint was made, not a tear shed. They got it, family comes first. I was very impressed with their very grown up decision. Now we are looking forward to a fun weekend with family, hopefully with much laughter and many pictures and silliness, like we always have. And for the millionith time, I'm going to try hard to be paitent and fun and get out of this funk and just enjoy the fun times. October is my favorite month for a TON of reasons, I need to enjoy it before it passes by.

4 comments:

Mom said...

You probably got your yelling from me...it is all I remember doing with you guys some days. And you are a much better than mom than I ever was...you do so much with your kids, and let them try so much new...I think you are hard on yourself-because you can see what wonderful boys you have so something must be right! Enjoy having all the cousins together

Kathryn said...

Aww. Such sweet grown up little boys. Little dears. :)

Kathryn said...

Aww. I just read your mom's comment. So sweet!

I think just about every parent feels that they yell too much. ;)

Dianna said...

Kel,
I really think that anyone who feels like they are doing a stellar job at parenting, probably isn't. I think doubting ourselves is healthy...it means that we always want to strive to do better. Anyone who doesn't WANT to constantly do/be better for their kids (because they think they are doing a bang-up job already) is fooling themselves and more than likely missing something important.
You are a WONDERFUL mom Kel...your boys are blessed to have you*!*